Should I just spill my heart? I believe that although it may be hard and although my sin may be obvious (oh, how sad!) or that it's just something a lot of people already obviously have in their lives, I am called to confess my sin to fellow believers and I will be healed. Oh, I've been on the computer when I should set it aside. I apologize to the world, to everyone, to God, to my family, for wasting time on the computer, time that belonged to Jesus.
What am I supposed to do with my life? Though this still may remain a question, did not God say to seek His face, to look to Him for all the answers? The funny thing is that it is completely untrue that I don't know what to do with my life. Sometimes it's been a statement used just because at that moment I didn't share the complete truth and my honesty. Oh, forgive me Lord, please! What a creature I am who needs NEEDS NEEDS His mercy. I just want it to flow down on me like a waterfall. His love is like that. It washes away my imperfections! Is there somewhere God wants me to be and I simply need to listen to His voice? Are my desires compatable with Jesus's?
Hidden meanings, hidden meanings...What will come out of my heart? Horridness? When all I want to be and know I should be is vague. Missing out. I don't want that. I'm tired of being a Pharisee. I must not, by God's grace, be one who longs for the praise of man but misses out on love.
When you're just so sick and tired of yourself...
When you're just so sick and tired of being sick and tired....
Then God breaks through.
When you're so obsessed with perfection that it just has to come but that it makes life hard to live.
I wish my heart was more beautiful. I wish my heart burst with God's beauty and love, shining ever brighter till the full light of day.
Am I being seen as just like the people I've been praying for so long to know Jesus? Oh, may that not be so. No more. I am called to live in such a way that no one can find anything wrong with me!
When God calls you and you don't respond....Lord, let this not even be implied of your people.
How do I find life? Do I forsake everything I "wanted" for what I really want and then somehow have everything I'll ever need and do all the things God wants me to do?
To know that God loves me is a transformational factor in life. It gives me the strength to not stand with the wicked (forgiven I am!), to be firm in righteousness, and to be full of faith. God's love helps me to love others.
The wreckage of this world that I must escape is set in such a manner that I have to truly believe and stand by faith. I must stop living in such a manner as claiming that as my inheritance! My portion is God! That is supernaturally natural.
I stand by faith, pushing aside all the surrounding trees, to see before me what is of God and what is of faith. I push them aside, and I see by faith, by hope, a safe haven of rest.
Psalm 107:30 They were glad when it grew calm, and he guided them to their desired haven.
Ashley! Amen! This is very much along the lines of things that have been in my thoughts as well - my heart feels like a contradiction every day, every hour, and yet my Savior takes that very heart and calls it to love Him! But I am so weak.... But He extends His grace! I am such an insufficient reflection of one thousandth of His goodness, and yet He chooses me to do just that.
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we do. we must. we shall (Lord-willing).
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